Let me put this out there: I'm not really happy with the way I feel about my body. Now don't get me wrong. I really appreciate it for what it can do. More than anything, I'm upset with myself. I didn't have the will power or motivation to be healthy and mindful. I let myself eat whatever I wanted and I always found an excuse to not exercise. One of my biggest foes was my addiction to Youtube. In my spare time I would lie in bed and go through my subscription box for hours, eating chips with guacamole, candy, and drinking Mountain Dew. I had let myself go too far so I gave up Youtube this Lenten season, using the time instead to exercise both my mind and body through prayer and physical activity.
I have committed to following through with one of my New Years Resolutions to run a 5k. This weekend, I am going to sign up for The Color Run 5k Chicago that is on June 16th. This past Friday I started the Couch-to-5k training program. I'm so unfit that I cannot run a mile without walking or stopping for a breath. Today after my Psychology exam I did the second workout of the program in conjunction with the Sunkissed Abs routine from the Tone It Up girls. Sorry for bombarding you all with a bunch of links, but I feel compelled to share with you where I get my motivation. I've also started eating healthier by cutting down my portion sizes (mostly because of Lenten fasting) and replacing most meats with vegetables. I also don't eat out as often.
Currently, my biggest fear is burning out. What if I get lazy? What if classes become overwhelming and I stop working out consistently? Who will get me back on track? Part of the reason I've decided to start writing blog posts again is because I need to hold myself accountable, and I think that if I share this with you, then you can help me too. This journey I'm going on is nothing to boast about. It's very humiliating for me because if you ask any of my close friends they will tell you that I'm a big proponent of healthy living, and now I'm standing in these shoes that so many others have stood in. I am incredibly hopeful and I will pray for strength everyday. If anyone knows who the patron saint of health or weight loss is, then please let me know.
Now onto the most terrifying part for me... the pictures and numbers.
Measurements (in inches)
Bust: 35
Chest: 31
Waist: 33
Hip: 39
Thigh: 22
Calves: 14.5
Upper arm: 9.5
Forearm: 9
Neck: 13
Weight: 139.4 lbs
:/ Gee whiz, where's my booty??!!!
Ah, there it is. Poor thing is not looking so good these days with all the sitting around I do. Also, the pink unicorn is just chilling. Expect to see more of this nonsense.
And finally, if you were wondering what my internal dialogue sounds like, it goes something like this...
